Ready or Not...

I am pretty sure for the last 9 months I have been in a form of denial.  I mean I defiantly know I am pregnant and have felt all the lovely symptoms that come along with being pregnant.  But I have had my other two wild and crazy kids to keep up with that I have not given much thought as to what was on the horizon.  Well with less than a week to go, the anxiety has kicked in.  Possibly because I can't move around too much these days, so I spent a lot of time hanging on the couch with more time to think or because I have a start date if I don't go into labor this time that I am mentally counting down the days.  Either way the idea of 3 kids is honestly terrifying to me!  I am not sure if my denial is my way of coping because I have not gotten anything ready for this baby.  Those that know me, knows this is NOT me. I have everything washed and ready for the first three months of the baby's life :) I have the nursery ready, bags packed and ready to go at like 7 months of pregnancy.  This time is so much different.  I don't have much of anything ready, my bags are not packed, and no names have been picked out for this one.  I feel so unprepared and so not ready for number 3.  But this kid is coming regardless, so hopefully I can accepted the inevitable and get my bum in gear.  Although I am completely freaked out, I am excited to meet this little one and find out the gender.  It's a little weird not knowing what we are having.  I am excited to see how Lukas and Madalyn react to another sibling in the house.  I am most excited to know this is the LAST time I will be pregnant...ok probably should not have said that cuz my life is everything I swore it would never be.  But I am pretty sure this will be the last unless number 4 becomes a medial miracle!